a previous blog...

i found this in my myspace blog. i felt it needed more audience..
 
Saturday, July 17, 2004 11:26 PM

its her birthday... we gonna partee like its her freakin birthday...
spending your saturday night alone at home isn't really that bad. given my situation right now i could say this right here is a keeper. I lacked sleep this week because of work... school, org... helping the ex look for a speaker for his advertising class. it funny how things sometimes goes your way. i do believe in karma. sometimes its the only thing that keeps me from bitching about. "Hah!" id always say.." karma will get you!" and she doesn't fail me everytime. it eliminates the need for me to get angry, and remember girls, for every anger or hatred is a wrinkle on your face. =p i miss so many people. my friends, my relatives... both my brother and my dad left early this morning for their seperate team building activity. honestly, i think those team building things are just an excuse for people at work to play around. they both went to beaches... dammit. haven't smoked today. oops, there goes my lighter again. i really have to quit now. my project is about to start and how can i promote cleaner air if i pollute it myself right? its hard i guess. i got so used to it that i cant seem to help look for it at times when im not doing anything. hmmm... i think right about now would be the time... its her party today. she never really mentioned when her birthday really is. i couldnt care less. but i really thought about goin to her house for her party tonight. well that was earlier this week. it would be knida wierd though, seeing his friends there at her party. hahah. i just remembered how we got talking in the first place. it was her car for carpool trip that monday morning when all of a sudden she asks me if i knew a guy named gabby. i told her yes. he was of course his friend and i sorta was scared at where our conversation would go. but then she shocks me by telling me that gabby apparently has been fibbing that we were goin out. on a monday morning? oh hell, i ranted. oh my god. NO! N-O. i knew he was her friend and i told her that gabby is nice but im ranting because it wasnt true at all. ahahah. me and gabby dating. its like having someone like my ex again.. i do not want another project. im off to lasalle on monday with arjem, art director from harrisson communications. i worked with him when i had my practicum at mccann. hes nice and kinda cute. hes funny thats all. and he was nice enough to volunteer to speak at caloy's class. why am i helping my ex? because i enjoy knowing the fact that he couldnt have done it without me. his group was having a hard time looking for a speaker for maybe at least a week? i got one for them in less than an hour. confirmation and all. its so nice bein powerful. mwahahahaha!!! im the queen of the world! oh and i just bought the velvet revolver album. its pretty cool but one thing ive noticed is how the rifts sounded alike in most of the songs. why did i buy it? impulse. went in tower records, played those displayed. promised myself i was goin to buy something and voila! velvet revolver. its nice to rock every once in a while and just let all those angst of youth headbang its way out of your system. this my dear, is not for punk skater boyish types.... this right here is for real men. huh??!??? what the f@ck? im just speaking through my ass. i really have to go out on a real party, not a drinking one.shit i need a date.