sweat mustache
Ian once told me that one of the things that can tell if you're the jealous type is if (when it's hot)you get a sweat mustache... unfortunately it's also the first thing that he noticed when we were dating...I can't say it's not true either...
What i don't understand is if jealousy is a problem brought by distrust or a simple misunderstanding of the situation? I trust him. He told me his story...all of it--- good, bad and the worse. I didn't mind... but why do i still feel an urge to pick a fight with all his exes?(which i think would take me years to find all of them...) Is it innate in everyone to hate exes? Is it inevitable? or am i just insanly jealous?
When you think about it, it's not really anyone's fault being an ex. I don't think anyone really wished they were someone's ex. It's quite frustrating actually. I don't hate his exes but i don't like the fact that they still exist.
Then is it a matter of misunderstanding then? You can't help it if there are just some things that would remind you of THEIR ex. Old gifts, places they went out to and even activities that they did. It feels awkward...
AWKWARD! that's it! Maybe it's neither... maybe it's the feeling of being awkward about his old memories with other women. It can get stifling knowing that you wouldn't want to mimic anything that they've done or have gone to. Afraid that by doing similar things that he did with his ex, or being in a memorable place from his past would make him remember his ex... Trust. Shit! We go back to trust!
I hate rationalizing things.
So maybe im still not sure what jealousy is really all about. Maybe it's just simply having a sweat mustache that can distinctly tell you you're the jealous type.
*Sigh* Got to remind myself it's a small world.
- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.
What i don't understand is if jealousy is a problem brought by distrust or a simple misunderstanding of the situation? I trust him. He told me his story...all of it--- good, bad and the worse. I didn't mind... but why do i still feel an urge to pick a fight with all his exes?(which i think would take me years to find all of them...) Is it innate in everyone to hate exes? Is it inevitable? or am i just insanly jealous?
When you think about it, it's not really anyone's fault being an ex. I don't think anyone really wished they were someone's ex. It's quite frustrating actually. I don't hate his exes but i don't like the fact that they still exist.
Then is it a matter of misunderstanding then? You can't help it if there are just some things that would remind you of THEIR ex. Old gifts, places they went out to and even activities that they did. It feels awkward...
AWKWARD! that's it! Maybe it's neither... maybe it's the feeling of being awkward about his old memories with other women. It can get stifling knowing that you wouldn't want to mimic anything that they've done or have gone to. Afraid that by doing similar things that he did with his ex, or being in a memorable place from his past would make him remember his ex... Trust. Shit! We go back to trust!
I hate rationalizing things.
So maybe im still not sure what jealousy is really all about. Maybe it's just simply having a sweat mustache that can distinctly tell you you're the jealous type.
*Sigh* Got to remind myself it's a small world.
- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.
posted by AveragePsycho at
11:43 PM
6 Comments:
i know what you mean about exes... i think its a natural thing to feel "awkward" about exes. sort of like how cats and dogs don't get along ;p
what gets to me about exes is that i wasnt there. i know, but i wasnt there. when you love a person, i guess you just really want to be part of all that he is. maybe the exes represent parts of him that you feel you can't ever be part of? does that make sense?
hello to ian. :) it was lovely seein ya, sha.
hi can i link you?!..hope yeh don't mind..
wait for your rep..
i think i agree with you jealousy is innate..
well don't worry too much coz i think that the current gf of your ex(that is if you have one)..is very much jealous of you too..ΓΌ
thanks for your comments girls!
its just really wierd and i dont like feeling uncomfortable with anything especially regarding relationships... but good point.. maybe my ex's gf feels the same way too about me :)
no prob linking me up!
"I don't hate his exes but i don't like the fact that they still exist."
hahahahaha. so true! ;P
hi El! she's back from out of nowhere! how have you been?
anyways, gld you dropped by... interesting post aint it?
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