desperate cry

As far as i could remember, i've never really taken anything seriously. Looking back, ive never really focused on any sport, any varsity for that matter (though i was in them), school, even work. I remember your BUD telling me one time how our boss was wierded out with me. He actually thought i wasn't doing any work cause i was laughing all the time. She aptly pointed out that i AM loaded with your work, and that i probably was just going crazy again cause of the stress. It's how i cope i guess and it's only now i realize that i'm like that most of the time. Just going crazy everywhere. Even hugging my grumpy creative directors...

Hey, it beats being a batman.

Denial? Maybe. I've been stressing about a lot of things lately. But i stand true to what i've said before, "no one likes grumpy company". Instead of sharing a load, why not unload and then be around people. Hassel lang sa kanila. And yet here i am. My solace. Sumbong mo na lang sa buong mundo...

People have been telling me that this is the real world already. Working... Earning your keep. I can see it now... Headline reads "Reality bites back to the Atenean Alabanger".

But i'm unsure. I'm barely holding on, and there are other things bringing me farther down. I'm taking things seriously now and i don't know for how long. (kill me if im rhyming...)

If this is what growing up means, then i want you to take it back. Take everything back and give me back my real smile and hearty laugh. Make the tears stop falling and the heavy feeling in my chest go away. Take it ALL back. Take EVERYTHING back. I don't want to deal with anyTHING, or anyONE that has to do with you.

I dont want anything to do with you anymore. I don't want to owe you anything anymore.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.