a previous blog...

i found this in my myspace blog. i felt it needed more audience..
 
Saturday, July 17, 2004 11:26 PM

its her birthday... we gonna partee like its her freakin birthday...
spending your saturday night alone at home isn't really that bad. given my situation right now i could say this right here is a keeper. I lacked sleep this week because of work... school, org... helping the ex look for a speaker for his advertising class. it funny how things sometimes goes your way. i do believe in karma. sometimes its the only thing that keeps me from bitching about. "Hah!" id always say.." karma will get you!" and she doesn't fail me everytime. it eliminates the need for me to get angry, and remember girls, for every anger or hatred is a wrinkle on your face. =p i miss so many people. my friends, my relatives... both my brother and my dad left early this morning for their seperate team building activity. honestly, i think those team building things are just an excuse for people at work to play around. they both went to beaches... dammit. haven't smoked today. oops, there goes my lighter again. i really have to quit now. my project is about to start and how can i promote cleaner air if i pollute it myself right? its hard i guess. i got so used to it that i cant seem to help look for it at times when im not doing anything. hmmm... i think right about now would be the time... its her party today. she never really mentioned when her birthday really is. i couldnt care less. but i really thought about goin to her house for her party tonight. well that was earlier this week. it would be knida wierd though, seeing his friends there at her party. hahah. i just remembered how we got talking in the first place. it was her car for carpool trip that monday morning when all of a sudden she asks me if i knew a guy named gabby. i told her yes. he was of course his friend and i sorta was scared at where our conversation would go. but then she shocks me by telling me that gabby apparently has been fibbing that we were goin out. on a monday morning? oh hell, i ranted. oh my god. NO! N-O. i knew he was her friend and i told her that gabby is nice but im ranting because it wasnt true at all. ahahah. me and gabby dating. its like having someone like my ex again.. i do not want another project. im off to lasalle on monday with arjem, art director from harrisson communications. i worked with him when i had my practicum at mccann. hes nice and kinda cute. hes funny thats all. and he was nice enough to volunteer to speak at caloy's class. why am i helping my ex? because i enjoy knowing the fact that he couldnt have done it without me. his group was having a hard time looking for a speaker for maybe at least a week? i got one for them in less than an hour. confirmation and all. its so nice bein powerful. mwahahahaha!!! im the queen of the world! oh and i just bought the velvet revolver album. its pretty cool but one thing ive noticed is how the rifts sounded alike in most of the songs. why did i buy it? impulse. went in tower records, played those displayed. promised myself i was goin to buy something and voila! velvet revolver. its nice to rock every once in a while and just let all those angst of youth headbang its way out of your system. this my dear, is not for punk skater boyish types.... this right here is for real men. huh??!??? what the f@ck? im just speaking through my ass. i really have to go out on a real party, not a drinking one.shit i need a date.

night exam sucks...

i just got home from dinner with some of my carpool friends. we had a long exam in theology and it ended at around 730pm. we decided to eat out. my friend had a craving for pecking duck which was 50% off at china bistro. tempting but very expensive. but we all were craving for chinese food. our destination? Zong at the fort. Yang chow fried rice! and spicy singaporean fish filet... mmm... yum. We wanted to indulge because of our exam. it wasnt as hard as we all expected it to be but the time that we had to take it was the bad news of it all. to think i could have gone home at around 130 in the afternoon. but noooo.... Dr.Parco wanted to have our exam at 630 in the evening. i couldnt even enjoy my freecut in my 6-9pm class. then i find out she was going to be there. we had the same teacher, wich was kind of wierd since last that i checked she was only in third yr. labo. but theni remember people saying she was my batch. anyway, we were supposed to ride together, she was going to hitch at my trip. i really didnt feel like mignling with her that much. what sucked more was that i pointed her out to my blockmates, and instinct kicked in, i asked how she looked. They said she looked ok raw. that sucks. well, it only sucks cause i think they're right. shes not gorgeous but she aint bad looking. crapola. i dont feel beautiful pa naman. haaay. what else can a girl do? id rather not sulk in this for long, besides i got to eat at Zongs on a school night with my friends. hope tomorrows even better 

school

many things happen in your life that sometimes are not on your side. ok ok, usually they're not. School... haaaay... sometimes i wonder if it's really worth it all. Teachers say their principles are that of making students earn and understand the lectures... what they mean by understanding is more of memorization. What they say goes, as well as the text... but what your insights worth? nothing... You not even allowed to air out criticism anymore. Most of the older professors are like this. Learning used to be fun because you understood it, on your own... now, you're stuck with the desire for something more than what the four corners of your classroom can offer.

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