Can someone give me the MOTORAZR V3 phone?

Living dangerously...

I have to make a new resolution to live dangerously. So far i've done one thing...

i drank straight from the carton...

What's next on my itenerary? Driving over 60 inside the village... without a seat belt! Ooooohhhh...

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many. The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately. You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss. A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

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NISUS

Nisus. A term I had learned in my last philosophy class. It’s basically the effort to reach enlightenment from darkness. The liberation from darkness. But that’s what it is. An endless effort. There, but not quite. It seems that most of us fall under this 5 letter word. It’s so small of a word yet the profound meaning of it encapsulates the very nature of man. Always hoping, but always left in the dark. Man is continuously found wanting whether noble or not. Imperfect. Frail. Mortal. Man.

Forgive me. It’s my Philosophy of Religion orals tomorrow morning.

By the way, Phantom of the Opera rocks! I’ll post my review when I have more time.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

CTK is finally over...

We came in as students... and came out as possible millionares! CTK is finally done and even for a night before finals week, my last week as a student, i can take my well deserved rest! It's going to be a very good slumber knowing our project has inspired one of our panelist to look for possible investors. He actually gave us advice after our defense on how we can truly profit in reality with our idea! "patent the idea" he said, and talk about it more to fully concretize it and be able to sell it! Woohoo! What once was a kikay idea was finally put into a paper and what we have is a possible future business venture for the best group in the world! Thanks to Cara, Rache, Tanya and PL, we had presented something that can revolutionize the retail industry. Innovators. Never thought it was attainable and yet as we continuously answered our panelist's inquiries it seemed more probable. It was the time we realized how concrete our project was. With an average of 2 hours of sleep between all of us last night, or rather this morning... we came out as possible millionares! Hmmm... The question isn't what we will do with a million, but what will we do with more than 20,000,000.00 pesos? I still haven't slept. And im still too excited with what happened in CTC 216 this morning (our venue for our defense). Add to that the fact that my parents actually allowed me to bring the car alone to school knowing all too well that i lacked sleep! I survived, even though my eyes were burning due to the lack of sleep.
Its friday tomorrow, last day of regular classes. Can't wait. It's in the bag and graduation is just one step away! Still can't believe our thesis is over. And it went so well! Wait, i said that already. Thank you. That's all i can say. oh, and good night. this millionare is sleepy.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

an abruption

I was trying to sleep a while ago, with the sound of jazz from my radio. Thank God they’re playing jazz in 106.7 now. All of a sudden I hear some noises outside my window. I couldn’t believe it. I went to my window and there it was—the smell of rain. I never knew how much I’ve missed it. It’s always a hassle to have to encounter rain when you’re trying to cross from one building to another at my school. But to have to experience it inside your house in the comfort of your bed rapped by your cozy blanket… well, need I explain more? The sound of rain pitter-pattering outside, and that unique sweet smell accompanying is nothing less than PRICELESS. I wish more nights are like these. Holding off work for a night and taking it easy. Turning on your radio and listening to soothing jazz is what life should be, at least at night (that and other delights ;) ) So I guess I have to go back to trying to sleep again. I have to study for my philosophy orals tomorrow. Tomorrow’s going to be another long day that would probably reach until the night. So I’ll enjoy this moment longer… my rain, my dear rain…

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something to perk me up

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stranger in the mirror

I stared at this girl in the mirror. She looked older now, though not any taller. She seems weary and tired, no longer the cheerful girl people once knew. I didn't even recognize her. Maybe it was because of the cruelty of time, or maybe just innocence faded away.
I remember being a kid and impatiently waiting for school to end so i could spend more time with my friends without worrying about tomorrow. It was all fun and games. Life was definitely simpler before. What i couldn't get i'd cry for, building up tantrums like your usual spoiled brat. I'm the youngest and the only girl in the family so life was relatively easier but definitely not better. I remember my nana would wake me up for school using tissue paper. She'd roll it up and start tickling my nose with it to wake me. And to think my classes started in the afternoon. Just goes to show i wasn't made for the early morning.
When i was younger I wasn't allowed to go out and play in the park, not even outside my house. My mom feared the sun. She didn't want her unica hija getting exposed to the blaring sun. She still gets frantic now everytime i go to the beach. I got teased a lot when i was finally allowed to play with my brother and the other kids in our block. But even this was constrained to hanging out at night. I was called a white lady, a ghost in their midst. They weren't used to me being outside. I also remember going home one day from my cousin's house who was then our neighbor. It was a hot afternoon, and we were playing with water balloons and my brother and i ended up drenched. I remember once playing hide and seek with the kids in our entire block when there was a blackout. There was even a time when i was running around with just my underwear (i was a kid k? not at this age). There's even a photo of me running around in our garden. My uncle once took a picture of me eating a watermelon. I had short hair with bangs and i was literally eating it with my hands. I was a very messy girl.
A lot has changed. Friends, personal views, knowledge, preference... priorities. What once was a girl who just waited for summer is now thinking about where to work for after college. Which company can offer me growth intellectually and financially? I'm making decisions now for my future, and the one that i'd have to share with. Life was simpler then.

It's difficult it seems for a transition. I was with someone when i went into college and i think it helped knowing that there was someone who would relate for me, with me with the new change. Now, it seems harder, more frightening than ever to get out of the confines of an institution i've grown fond of.
My friends in school are starting to talk about it and i can't help but realize the big impact we had with each other even though we've only spent 4 years together. We're sad because we know the truth, the reality after graduation. Some will be working immediately while most will probably take a much needed break. We will be seeing less of each other, maybe not at all. I know some will be leaving the country as some of my friends have done after graduation for hopes of getting a better life outside the country. Though i enjoy living life as optimistic as i want, the truth is i'm scared as hell. Uncertainty it seems is an enemy of mine. So with this entry i'm not going to tell you that everything will turn out well, cause i'm not sure either. Who knows what that girl i saw in the mirror will look like after college, or maybe after 5 years... or 10 years from now. No one will know. I won't probably recognize her still.

the saddest song ive ever heard

I Can't Make You Love Me
written by Mike Reid and Allen Shamblin
as performed by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
inside my head

Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close,
don't patronize

Don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't

I'll close my eyes
then I won't see
the love you don't feel
when you're holding me

Morning will come
and I'll do what's right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and I will give up this fight

Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
something it won't
Here in the dark
in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power
but you won't
No, you won't
Cause I can't make you love me
if you don't


- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

Thoughts on getting hitched

Having a raspy voice doesn’t seem to stop me from talking. It’s not like I can’t NOT talk, but when I’m with a group of people I can’t bear silence.
I had the flu Thursday and by Friday I couldn’t go to school (Dad’s orders). That Saturday morning we had to made our way back to Pangasinan to visit our late grandfather apart from celebrating my uncle’s wedding-- again. Not that I’m complaining. The travel was difficult in most part. Having to sit in the car for 5 hours with the blaring sun is no easy ride. But coming back is by far the best way to run away from everything—school, the noise, school… Plus of course the food.
In spite of my voice, I still chatted with my relatives. Chatting would include drinks of course.
There were a lot of insights regarding marriage courtesy of my brother. My aunts and uncles shared their thoughts about it. One of my aunts recently got divorced and her story made me more cautious for the future. She lived with her ex-husband for three years before getting married with him. She even left her job and her family just to be with him. She gave everything up. But after all that, of love and maybe bliss, getting married actually changed everything. She mentions a huge shift after they actually got married especially having their first and only child. After all her sacrifices, she’s left now with an ex-husband whose relatives think she did something wrong. The details are of no importance but the question that remains is “how would you know you’re making the right decision?”
Marriage is the ultimate choice one would have to make in life. It’s choosing a partner to spend the rest of your entire life with. You’re bound—legally and in the face of God. I’m not expecting marriage to be perfect. I know couples fight, but how sure are you that you can take each other’s faults for the rest of your lives? Communication, she says, is key to a good marriage. Cliché.
Claire and I talked about it before. It seems such a difficult thing to live up to your parents, of their marriage. I still see my parents hold hands while walking. They do other sweet stuff in front of me and my brother which I find disgusting but at the back of my mind I long to be in that situation too in the future.
It’s a huge step. A big leap. Maybe marriage shouldn’t just be that of trust. Maybe marriage should be based more on faith. Faith that both of you will love each other and not just because you love that person even with their flaws, but love them despite of it. Again, cliché.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.