Pre-halloween thoughts...

Tomorrow is hallow's eve... Halloween! But unlike the previous years, i'm not as excited as i used to be. You see i have work tomorrow. It's not considered a big occassion in my new agency so it wasn't announced as a public holiday. Even if it was, i have a shoot tomorrow.

My mom was nagging me yesterday about how i'm supposed to be the one to put make-up on my cousin's faces. I had to tell her bluntly that i had work. Egad! Kids start at 3pm to make their rounds in the village which would mean make-up should start at lunch... I will still be in the office at this point. By the time i'll be making my way back to Alabang at around 6... expect that there will be traffic in Commerce Avenue. There will be and event held in Alabang Town Center and parents lining up outside the village to bring their children for Trick or Treatin'.

When i do get in the village, my time will be spent dressing up for the barkadings gimmik. (Held every year for so long already). I still don't know what to wear. Ian said i should just drape a white cloth over me with holes for my eyes. Classic.

But thinking about it right now just makes me want to hang out with Ian and just watch TV. No more noises, or even alcohol. I just want to sleep without my parents nagging me to get up and mingle.

Who knows, i still want to see the barkada. It's been so long...


- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

Komik kon

Last saturday was my first comic convention. It was held in Bahay ng Alumni in UP. Ian was launching his first comic book ULTRACOPS under Budjette Tan's Alamat comics. I was there for support.

Ian had always tried to teach me all the terms i needed to know to understand "his world" aka the geekdom. The day before the convention, i confessed to him that i was afraid to go... it seemed like i had to review for a final exam. When i shared this with Budjette... he actually asked questions...

Do you remember Spongebob's chant on the way to Krusty Krabs? "I'm ready! I'm ready!..." That saturday i was singing "I'm going to my fi-irst comic con..." It was a mix of excitement and fear. Ian instilled in my head the image of the convention being filled with geeks. "What if i say something wrong? They might think im such a dummy and throw me out!". Ian pacified me by saying "It's ok b, just consult me first before saying anything...." Geez.

When we got there, we saw Budjette swarmed with fans clamming for his signature. After which Budjette would give them their change... Artist and accountant? A surge of oc-ness cam over me. I volunteered to be their cashier... or as Ka-jo would call it "ang kahera".

During my short-stint to pass as a geek i met Gerry, Leinil, Carlo, Edgar and all the who's who in the Philippine comic industry. Yes, i have to admit that i got star struck.

But of course my true color emerged. While going around with ian we saw posters done by other local artists. One of which looked familiar:

Shali: Hey, this reminds me of the old wizard in Battle Crashers...
Ian: Huh? oh yeah... wait, what did you say?!
Shali: Which one? Battle Cra-shers?
Ian: Baby... It's Battle Chasers...
Shali: Oh no! I hope no one heard me... Let's go na...

Over all i had so much fun. It was nice to hear praises from complete strangers about your boyfriends work. I mean, it was my quality time with my boyfriend that got sacrificed too you know.

Post event
Monday at work, i was still hung up on my first stint in the convention. I told my collegues about it and they all just seemed to laugh at the idea that i was there. What was more surprising though was what the convention gave me-- the geek cooties.

During lunch with Jason last monday... We were talking about my first ever comic con> and we ended up talking about filipino comics and artists...

Jason: oo nga eh... there's this Filipino character already in Marvel.
Pinoy yung gumawa tapos pinoy rin yung character niya...
hmmm what's this character again...???
Shali: Bishop?
Jason: Yun!!!

YB after lunch

Jason: so you know about transformers too? what's the greeting?
Shali: Ba-wip- granawip-nini-bon
My favorite's Grimlock... Me-like-grimlock!hahahahaha
Jason: Yes, you are a geek... i'll give you a copy of the geek manifesto
from the house....Ian would probably have it too...

After sharing this with Budjette, he christened me as a Geekette. Ian is so proud.


- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

toilet humor

I decided not to bring "baon" yesterday. I didn't want to have to carry another bag just for that. It's easier to just buy in the cafeteria you say? Food isnt as interesting. It really looks like a cafeteria and not a food court. It even looks gloomy.

So lunch came and i made my way downstairs. I had beef with bell peppers. It looked yummy. And it was with the occassional tough meat to chew. Overall it was ok.

During the afternoon, we decided to have a break for merienda. I had egg pie from jolly jeep.

And to top it all off, at the end of the day i made my way to the squidball vendor along Ayala for some... er... squidballs.

Early this morning, i rushed to the bathroom. I felt bad. There was a piercing pain in my stomache, more than a simple stomacheache...

I though it was just a case of eating too much. That it was just one way of taking out the bad elements in my body... only hastened. But even after that 1am episode, i woke up this morning with the same pain.

My body cant stomache too much jolly jeep in a day...

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

Ang sabi nila...

I had though it would be easy.
Having to leave just meant graduating in school, or moving forward to another level. New people. A new place. I never thought it could be this hard. Having to remember a pleasant past and looking to a bitter present.

They said to just take it with a grain of salt. I did. But the salt has been accumulating. Faster than i can handle.

They said to just ride it out. Again and again, it feels like riding through a wild river. Sharp rocks, steep falls. Its endless.

They said it was part of growing up. "Welcome to reality". Since when did fantasy end and reality begin?

I don't know what to make of it.

A little spider told me that "Good always comes after bad".

Now. I wait.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.

One friday night blurb

It was hard.

In a single place, i found myself contemplating alone.
And just like isolation i found myself deafend and defeated.
The reality that in a single room i might find his past.

Who knew that during the time i wasn't sober
and unexpecting
I would find myself trapped in the idea that i feared most.

- Live like there's no tomorrow. Love like it's your last.